Monday, October 15, 2012
自分の気持ち 信じられない
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Events of late:
FIRE ALARM WENT OFF AT 5.30 AM THIS MORNING. When the wail of the alarm jolted me out of my peaceful but raucous slumber (raucous because, according to Michelle, I was snoring away really loudly last night, and this was not the first time), I had a vague thought "Oh no is this the end of the world?" My musing was interrupted by Ginger Hannah and Michelle's enraged cries of "Motherfucker!" and "What the fuck is going on?!" I check my phone and chime in, "Oh my god it's only fucking five-thirty!" Unlike the night before when the alarm went off at 9ish PM where the three of us stayed in our room, this time we obediently pile out of the building with everybody else.
Later, we would learn that the alarm went off cos a girl who lives in Brooks (the all-female dorm connected to our dorm building) burnt her popcorn and set off the alarm. Our reactions to this were all the same in effect (with expletives or not) – Who the fuck makes popcorn at 5.30 AM?!?!?! Apparently, this girl is on the swim team and they wake up really early everyday for practice. This prompted another question (from Michelle) – "Who the fuck has popcorn for breakfast?!?!?!"
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In light of the news of my loud and unglamorous snoring, I have decided that I will only marry someone who finds my snoring cute (although when Michelle imitated the way I snore, it sounds really guttural and absolutely defeminizing). SIGH WHY AM I BORN WITH NASAL AND SINUS PROBLEMS WHY. The worst part is, I felt absolutely fine last night!!!! I didn't feel like my nose was congested with snot or anything. Does this mean my 下巴下垂 (<--- the explanation my parents give to the question of why people snore as they grow older) already :((((( I do believe I will be completely enraptured by someone who will not only accept, but also think fondly of my loud snoring, oh yes I will.
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Concluding lunch with Dalia Ziada today! This brings our course with her to a close, subsequently we have another class with Professor Mattiace. Will kinda miss Dalia (lol say until like she's my friend. She's not, though), she's really nice and friendly and so inspiring. Ate too much food that was provided at the free lunch HAHAHA I was half-abashedly grabbing pieces of curry chicken (it is rare to find food that is spicy, and even this was hardly spicy to me) and to justify my actions I exclaimed to one of my classmates with gusto, "This chicken is so good!"
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Women's Studies midterm exam is on Wednesday, boo >:( Today we received very vague instructions on what we're supposed to study for the exam, let's hope I get an A, this makes up 20% of my grade!!!
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Yesterday, checked my mailbox and got a letter from Kelila! It's like an act of divine intervention omg. Especially with this recent discovery of Waibin avoiding me for apparently no reason :( I wrote back asking Kelila for help (haven't mailed out the letter yet), but I have a feeling that he might have deleted her off Facebook too.
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Finished Divergent by Veronica Roth, well it was somewhat frivolous and definitely very easy to read, so that was enjoyable, but it also made me feel guilty. Today in English class we discussed the difference between casual reading and close reading, and this made me realize why I have not been able to advance in my understanding and employment of literature – because I never had the patience to try and understand complex literary texts and read through them in the first place. Even if I do have the "patience" to finish a complex book, it is really only a mask – I skim through the text without slowing down to try and make deeper sense of what is being said and implied. I am ashamed cos this demonstrates laziness, how far would I be now if I had, from years ago, patiently read through texts that are harder to understand? But it is too early to give up yet.
I am constantly amazed by the world of literature and constantly having my mind expanded. It's like everyday I'm shedding old notions I've held and gaining glasses of different shades and tints to use to view the world. Most striking of all is this – the study of literature advocates patience. My major and minor remains undeclared but after today, of this I am sure – I will at least minor in English, and if I find I really enjoy it I'll double major in English and something else, or major in something else and have English as one of my double minors.
Someday I'll write something amazing, instead of all these bromidic discourses.
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Kellogg's Special K Bar cereal bars are divine. And they are only 90 calories apiece. I am eating one now, at 11.12 PM.
Ta! <--- tribute to Phoebe, who used to sign off this way
P/S to my poly friends – hope you all had a good first-day-of-the-semester :-)
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