Sunday, October 30, 2011
Y1S2W2
Here's how I spent my second week of the semester.
24th October / Monday
Had my first Idea Jumpstart (IJ) class.
We had to build a roller coaster with straws, pipe cleaners, masking tape, vanguard sheets and plasticine. I think we had a pretty good idea (well I supplied the main idea but I'm not praising myself!!!) and it worked really well at the start but because we shifted and all our roller coaster didn't work in the end.
It's okay though, it was fun doing the roller coaster with Piaomin and the three other guys. Actually, I can't really remember their names. Jason (?), Jeremy and Zheng Wei. We're staying in this group too for the upcoming projects so I really, really hope that my group mates are not slackers. I'd rather have people without too many talents than have slackers.
Also had my first Sports & Wellness class (S&W), I got into Pilates :) I'm with Phoebe and Vanessa. Other FMS people in our Pilates class included Youxin, Abigail (whom I sat next to in various lectures last semester) and Jodenia. There were only two guys in our Pilates class, one of them is corpulent, has really fair skin and extremely sharp nails. He grew his nails out and cut them into triangles... :/ The other guy seems normal though haha.
At night, a little over 11 PM, I threw on my cardigan and headed to McDonalds' at King Albert Park to get some Oreo McFlurry because I was craving for it.
25th October / Tuesday
Tuesday morning found me in Principles of Marketing Comm (Marcomm) lecture in LT73B, aka the no-reception theatre HAHAHA. I remember what Izzy posted the first week we had a lecture there... "This is too smart. No phone service in LT 73. :("
The day went by pretty uneventfully, we had our lunch break at Munch, where I had kimchi noodles and Phoebe got curry noodles. Then came Graphic Communication (Gracomm) and Location Video Production (LocVid) lectures after that, and finally school ended. Stayed behind a little and snacked at Munch with Josh and Terry. I had one curry puff from Old Chang Kee and two chocolate bun things from Mr. Bean... It was raining pretty heavily so Josh loaned his umbrella to us (a wedding gift from his cousin's wedding) and Terry gave me a lift home.
26th October / Wednesday
Deepavali. Bought breakfast (carrot cake for me, waffle for the boy) and headed to the boy's house to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix :) Wanted to get prata, but Enaq was closed :( Headed over to West Mall and watched the boy have KFC for dinner hahaha. He gave me the whipped potato that came with his meal.
I love the whipped potato from KFC... Loved it ever since I was a kid. :) I couldn't eat it a lot when I was young because my mum thought of KFC as really unhealthy (which it is). But the first time I tried it, I fell in love with it hahaha. The taste was etched into my mind foreverrrr.
I got a pack of Hot & Spicy Chipsters and devoured them at night alongside a mug of Milo. And then I slept really late... As a result, I got a slight fever and sore throat the next day.
27th October / Thursday
Was dreading this day, mainly because of Gracomm tutorial.
Media in Society (MedSoc) tutorial, thankfully, was pretty intriguing I guess :) Taught me to look at things from a different angle. And the best thing? I can totally relate to the alternate view(s) because it all makes sense to me. If you don't already know, I've been having a really hard time in recent months reconciling with people's differing views because what other people think just do not make sense to me.
We had lunch at Makan Place because we got sick of Munch. I had guotiao noodles :) And banana juice! Which reminds me, I owe Phoebe money cos she paid for my banana juice first because I didn't have spare change.
Intro to Web Design & Comp Graphics (Webgra) was pretty fun as usual although I was rather distracted throughout the lesson doing my own experiments on Photoshop hahaha. Give me Photoshop over Illustrator anytime, any day!
Then came the very much dreaded Gracomm tutorial. I started feeling too tired (having slept late and because of the fever/sore throat) so I just tuned out and started researching pictures of dip-dyed hair online ahahha. Phoebe sat next to me so we started discussing dip-dyed hair avidly. I am going to get my hair dyed brown first, and then I'll dip-dye it a few weeks after or so.
Was supposed to go for Contemp Jazz at O School after school but I was exhausted so I allowed myself to go home. Wasn't quite in the mood for dance anyway, to be honest... :/ Although I did feel guilty about skipping class.
28th October / Friday
Had lunch at Munch with Zexun and Lizheng!!!! Before my class started. We all had Pepper Lunch :) It was pre-planned. I always feel this sense of affection for them, people have no idea hahaha. My friends from secondary school are always special to me. :) We talked and all and I had a really good time.
Met with Theo, Dynn, Josh and Joyce afterwards and discussed our Marcomm project.
LocVid tutorial from 3 to 6 was fun and enriching as usual. Did some experimental shots on the camera with Phoebe and Vanessa and it was fun! Our tutor seemed pretty pleased with us, too, for trying.
Headed to Al-Azhar afterwards with Terry, Davin, Dynn and Theo and watched them have dinner. We headed back to school with the idea of going to Scarefest in mind but the queue was too long so we decided to head home instead. Terry sent me home again! Thank you.
All right so that was my week. I don't know if anyone read through all of that but yeah, I just wanted to remember how my week went.
I might be changing my blog layout soon. I like this one, but somehow I just keep getting the feeling that the font used for the post makes the blog repulsive... In that it isn't easy to read. I know I could just change the font but I really don't want to because this font fits really well with the layout, I feel. So I'm going to just start making a new layout - a more comprehensive and better one.
Met up with Chinkiat for lunch today - he treated me. We had Italian at Pepperoni Pizzeria and man it was delicious. I couldn't finish it though... Portion was a bit too much for me haha. I went to the Boon Lay SAFRA to play L4D on my own whilst waiting to meet Puiling. We met at Jurong Point. I had a ball of time catching up, reminiscing and walking around :) We should meet up more often, PL!!!!!
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Day 21
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 21 — Team Rocket or Team Galactic?
Team Rocket, of course!
I know nothing about Team Galactic.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
This is an easy one to relate to because every single person I've met ever since going to poly, I've judge by first impression. I know people say that you shouldn't believe in first impressions and you should learn to be patient and see beyond the surfaces of people but no... I think that is incorrect. You can tell many things from the way a person speaks, behaves and dresses.
But of course you can't believe first impressions entirely.
My first impression of Cassandra was that she was shy.... So different from how we know her now hahaha. I still don't think I was wrong... I'd thought she was shy because she didn't speak much to us. I guess she isn't shy, she just takes a little time to fit into a new place. And now that she's grown accustomed to everything in school, she's comfortable with expressing herself I suppose. Hahaha.
I always wonder about the first impression I give people. Over the years, the responses I've collected include...
Ah Lian
Dao
Emo
Single child
The first being the one I hear most and the last being the one I hear least. SIGH, DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE AN AH LIAN??? Dao and emo I can understand... I don't smile a lot and I really have a poker face. But ah lian??? Why do people think that. I still don't get it. Is it just my face? Or the way I carry myself?
School starts at 1 PM tomorrow. Hope Idea Jumpstart would turn out well and my groupmates won't be slackers.
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Thursday, October 27, 2011
Life, it seems, is all about perception. It's the reason why we have phrases like "One man's trash is another man's treasure" and "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder".
Did you know plumpness used to be revered centuries ago? (Not obesity, I mean being plump.) It's the reason why Disney's Snow White has a fuller and rounder figure. Such a figure back in the days was considered attractive. It is also why she has a cropped and curled hairdo. Time has changed the standards of beauty. Today, a svelte figure is highly desired. It's the reason why the later Disney Princesses have a slim body and long blonde hair.
Life, it seems, is all about the in-between. Very few things are in
the extreme zone. Very few things are perfect or rotten to the core and
unrepairable and useless.
Being a good person is hard, so hard, because it means attaining balance. And it's hard to do because you don't know when you're at the right place, you don't know when you're falling off the scales.
They say being kind is never wrong. But when you're too nice, you get taken advantage of, and then people go about saying how your kindness is your weakness. They say being truthful is good, but when you tell a hurtful truth, people go about saying how you're too direct. Where to draw the line? Where to draw the line?
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Gracomm threatened my sanity today. Choy Kok Kee was 15 minutes late for our tutorial class and another 15 minutes in, my head felt like it had been bludgeoned ten times over and more. Give me Photoshop over Illustrator anytime, really.
I don't know if it's because of the lack of sleep or whatever-it-is, but I've been pretty snappy and irritable these days.
I cannot, cannot, CANNOT stand how whiny and kanjiong some people are. I'm trying to bear with it. I am I am I am.
School is so boring (in terms of things that are happening) that I hardly have anything to blog about. How I miss Fuhua, how something would happen everyday, how Kenny and Cheeyuan and Javan and Lizheng and the like would do stupid things. Everything was almost methodical... And the familiarity of it all is absolutely comforting. I suppose it's one of those things you realise only after you've been graduated and start flopping about like a fish out of water.
Having a sore throat now. Should not have ate that pack of Hot & Spicy Chipsters and drank that mug of Milo and slept at 1 AM last night.
Nothing feels absolute.
Bye. I will blog when the words flow out better. All my sentences seem so stilted and ungraceful today.
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Day 20
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 20 — Least Favorite Pokémon
As I've mentioned before, when it comes to me, things are always in-between and hardly ever the extreme... Don't really have a least favourite Pokémon.
Jynx
But this is pretty ugly.
What is with that expression? And a center part?
And that thing I can only describe as a bustier... The only words that come to my mind are (pardon the crudeness), "neh neh pok".
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Again, as I've said before, I don't want to keep blogging about the people/subjects I've written too extensively before over and over again.
If you want to know more about how I felt back then, you can refer to the following posts from my old blog: 1, 2, 3, 4.
I actually feel I could write really eloquently then... Hahaha. The feelings really came across really strongly. I was raw and afraid and guarded and vulnerable. All, at, once.
A few of the posts I've linked to above have been viewed by only a few people... This is because when I'd written them, I locked my blog and only some people had access to them. So don't be too surprised if you think you haven't seen them before. (Erm, this is if people who used to read my blog are still reading it now.)
To the person who broke my heart the hardest, you know who you are. Hell, almost everyone I knew from Fuhua knows who you are.
I just want to say I don't blame you (not entirely). And I know it must be tough on you as well, having to suffer to brunt of an overemotional ex-girlfriend, brunt which manifests itself most of all through her emo blog posts, which seemed to be written one after another at a successive rate. I do not regret ever writing what I did - the only thing I gripe about it how awkward it is between us now. I don't ever dare to look at you lol.
Don't worry, I will try my best not to write about you anymore.
You lead a happy life okay?
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Sunday, October 23, 2011
Day 19
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 19 — Favorite Character Shipping
I don't do character shippings because to me, they're unrealistic. It's pointless believing in something that's not stated in the show and would most likely never happen.
But if you must know, of course there are characters which I think would be good together. I think Ash and Misty would make a pretty good pair although I can't really imagine them in a serious romantic relationship. Besides, since Misty has always been taller than Ash, I've have always had this impression that she's slightly older than Ash. So really, I am fine with where things stand between Ash and Misty now, relationship-wise. Best friends, with hints of a mutual crush between them. The only thing I hate is how MISTY IS NOT IN THE SHOW ANYMORE. Bring her back!!!!
I also think that if Brock can find one girl that would let him settle down for good, that would be awesome. However, I cannot decide on any girl that would be good for him. If Brock doesn't go all bananas over every other pretty girl he sees... Wouldn't you agree he would actually be the perfect guy? Let's not talk about looks because looks are subjective. But Brock can cook, clean and take care of kids... And he can do all of the above WELL. Before you start thinking of him as a househusband, let's not forget he's not too shabby a trainer either!
Bah. It's not like Brock really exists in real life :( Pokémon oh Pokémon, I wish so badly you were real.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Not gonna do this. All eligible candidates have been written about before already.
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Brock & Clothes
A few days ago...
Read from bottom tweet up (all the other pictures too)
Soon thereafter...
BROCK HEEDED MY ADVICE HAHAHA.
And I spoke to him!!! Omg. I know it's just someone pretending to be Brock on Twitter but STILL. It was so fun! You should all follow him!!!! I don't know why he (this particular account) gets so little followers. Even some of the dead accounts get more followers than he does. He updates pretty habitually!
This is what I wore to class on Friday. The colours are a little different cos one picture is HDR and the other isn't. As usual, the pictures are taken with my phone.
Dressing up for school can be such a hassle sometimes, especially when you're in a hiau faculty like mine (I know the common term is "school" but people often associate it to the whole school when I'm really referring only to the School of Film & Media Studies. So I shall just use "faculty" instead). On Friday class was only 3 hours (LocVid) but I felt like dressing up so I did. Um, but because class was only 3 hours I was lazy to wear my contacts and just wore my glasses out. So I looked terrible from neck up I guess.
Having to think about what to wear to school is troublesome because if you dress like shit, people stare at you and make assumptions about you. Maybe I'm too self-conscious and sensitive but it seems to me plenty of FMS people do that. If you look weird but dressed up, people seem to appreciate that more than they would someone who's in a tshirt and shorts.
Sometimes I feel so out of place when I'm wearing my tshirt/random top, shorts and flipflops (henceforth referred to as the TSFs). Then again I frequently cannot be bothered to dress up because:
a) I live next to school.
Why dress up when you're only going somewhere near home?
b) Lazy to rack my brains for outfit combinations.
For those of you who think my family is affluent, you are wrong. Even if my family is well-off, my parents do not advocate frequent and reckless shopping. We do not indulge in shopping sprees and I have had, from young, a mindset to buy inexpensive things. It is not often I buy pieces that are really expensive... Honestly even $20 for a top is a lot to me, although I know to most people it is normal. I know most people would think Forever 21 is not expensive, maybe middle-ranged or even cheap, but for me it is a little steep. I understand where Forever 21 stands amongst other clothing brands when we're talking about prices. But my allowance is not a lot (after deducting the stuff I have to pay for, e.g. phone bills, bathing products and the like), so I really cannot afford to buy things that causes my bank balance to dip too much. Sometimes when I buy a top that is $20... I have to lie to my mum and say it costs only $15. And even then sometimes she would say, "Oh you can get that at the market, 3 for $10." YES, my family is like that. Which is why I love going to Bangkok. And even at Bangkok I'm hesitant to make purchases that cost over 300 baht apiece... Sigh.
Please don't ask me to ask my parents for extra money for shopping. I will not do it.
c) I don't go out after school often.
If I'm going home right after school, then I don't see the need in dressing up too nicely because it will only result in extra laundry for our maid. Besides, I feel like I should dress up only when the occasion calls for it... And I don't see why dressing up nicely for school is important. Of course, looking sloppy is another thing altogether. Looking presentable is still important. Obviously you can't wear flipflops on the day you have a presentation.
Sadly, some FMS people think wearing TSFs is already sloppy. At times I wish I were in BA or something, because nobody cares when you're in the TSFs.
Don't understand people who always dress up TOO trendily for school. What are you trying to prove? That you're very stylish and hip? Seems rather pointless, if you ask me.
Another part that frustrates me about picking outfits for school is this: when you want to dress up, you want to look cool and put together without seeming like you're trying too hard. That, in my opinion, is the toughest thing of all in piecing an outfit together.
When you dress up too much (over the top), it attracts unnecessary attention. Sure, like-minded people would think you're being stylish and hip and cool and (cue faux angmoh accent) ohmygawd that is gawww-jus, work it baby you're making a fashion statement! But to me... What is the point? Where's the glamorous occasion? Why dress up for school? It's just... SCHOOL. When I see people like that, it just makes me think they're trying to show make a point. It's as if they're screaming, "LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT WHAT I'M WEARING! I'M SO COOL, RIGHT? MY FASHION SENSE IS AWESOME, RIGHT?" Cannot. Stand. Attention-seekers.
Some people say life is too short to look shitty. Yes, that's true. But life is also too short to feel uncomfortable in clothes that make you look like an attention seeker.
It's true when people say life is all about perspective.
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Saturday, October 22, 2011
Day 18
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 18 — Favorite Gym Medal
I only care about the Kanto gym badges because those are the only ones I remember.
Top row (L-R): Boulder Badge (Pewter City) / Cascade Badge (Cerulean City) / Thunder Badge (Vermillion City) / Rainbow Badge (Celadon City)
Bottom row (L-R): Soul Badge (Fuchsia City) / Marsh Badge (Saffron City) / Volcano Badge (Cinnabar Island) / Earth Badge (Viridian City)
I managed to name all of the above and their corresponding cities with minimal reference. I think that's pretty good hahaha
My favourites would have to be the Cascade Badge and Rainbow Badge. The Rainbow Badge because it's, um, colourful (LOL). The Cascade Badge... Mostly because it is Misty's gym. Hahaha
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
I do not desire to be any person but a good one.
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Bangkok, October 2011
Hmm, all right here are the photos from Bangkok haha.
Random photo of an opening at Chatuchak that leads to the gate we came in from. Took the photo cos I wanted to remember where we had to go to leave... But obviously it was a failure because my mum insisted on walking around aimlessly. Rule #1 at Chatuchak: NEVER walk around aimlessly thinking you'd be able to backtrack and return to your original starting point.. Because you won't. Despite having gone to Chatuchak so many times over the past few years, my mum still doesn't care.
We stayed at Asia Hotel - same as the last time. There was a restaurant across the road from the hotel that was really good. Thai food, of course. I think it makes sense to try the cuisine of the country you're visiting. It wouldn't really make sense if, say, you had Chinese food in America. Because that wouldn't be true-blue Chinese food.
So anyway, there were these cats outside the restaurant, which were strays that sort of belonged to the owners of the restaurant next to the one we were headed to. There was this small kitten the last time we went there (I've got the picture of it on my camera). This time, we saw it again! Only, it grew bigger.
There it is, hiding between those bricks.
Look at that cat perched on the vat hahaha.
Next I'm going to show you all the things I got.
That's about it. It isn't a lot, really. Wasn't too into the shopping mood. Shopping with my mum isn't as easy.
An Audrey Hepburn shirt... Because Audrey is the epitome of class and chic, ergo buy more Audrey Hepburn merchandise hahaha.
Small wallet for my cousin, who loves cats.
Rings... The flower one is for Kaiwen.
Two small bottles of nail polish. I really like the pink glittery one! Painted on my nails right now.
Two pairs of shoes that I bought. I'm aware that the platforms will definitely start appearing in the streets of Singapore soon, sigh. It's the trend for these types of shoes now. I HOPE NO ONE BRINGS THE OXFORDS INTO SINGAPORE, NO, NO, NO. I don't wanna see people wearing the same thing as I am all over the streets. Those shoes are lovely, what with the print and all. And it's really comfy, which is a huge cause for love, because I suck at buying shoes and always end up buying shoes that are too big/small/tight/narrow/just don't fit well. Even a shoe that's the right size for me can bite into my feet and give me blisters because I don't really check and test the shoes out properly before I buy them. :(
Our hotel room was illuminated by yellow light, so in the previous pictures the colour of the shoes weren't as accurate and you couldn't see some details. Above is a picture taken with flash.
We sat at the very first row of the section on our flight back. Had never sat there ever, before that flight. It was interesting because you had to pull out the tray tables and TV sets from the arm rest.
That sums up my trip. It was nothing much.
One funny incident that occurred was when I was returning to my hotel room one night. I was alone because my massage ended and my mum still had an hour to go so I returned alone. Soon after I entered the lift, two Singaporeans wanted to come in. The most distinctive thing about the man was that he was in a wheelchair. As for the lady, she was plump. She also seemed rather vain.
My room was on the 7th floor and I had already pressed the button for the 7th floor. The guy told his friend/girlfriend/wife/whoever to press the 8th floor button because she had forgotten. As she reached over to do it I pressed it for them instead and she mumbled a 'thank you'. We stood in silence for a few seconds as the lift drew itself up and then the guy said...
"Eh, 你不是说 7 楼有鬼咯？" ("Didn't you say there was a ghost on the 7th floor?")
To which the lady replied (in an exasperated and mock-dismissive tone), "Aiya, 每一间都有鬼啦！" ("Aiya, every room has a ghost!")
No doubt this was an attempt to scare (or as we would say in Singlish, deesiao) me. I wasn't afraid at all because I had stayed at the hotel before anyway. And the man just seemed to exudate airs of idiocy and immaturity. I decided to ignore them and not to care.
When the lift door opened, I took a few steps out. Before I was even out of earshot and their vision, I could hear the lady start to laugh and jokingly admonish the man as she crossed over to the side of the lift I had vacated to press the 'Close' button. And I couldn't help it. I turned around and... Gave them a smirk. HAHAHA
Seeing this, the woman released a shocked guffaw. As she started to tell the man that I smirked at them, the door closed.
I hope they did not mistake my expression as one of anxiety, because anxious I was not. But I know the extents of my emotionless face and I know how sometimes when I think I'm smiling nicely but it somehow turns out looking like a grimace-smile hybrid. It's terrible.
I hope my smirk was a good Draco Malfoy replica... Like:
Something like that, but more smart-ass and sardonic and arrogant. I guess you'll know what I mean if you've seen the movie and taken note of how snarky he looks when he smirks and make snide remarks at Harry Potter and gang.
If I can't reach that stage, I hope at least my smirk looked enigmatic and knowing... Like, You're a bunch of idiots do you really think I believe there are ghosts in the hotel? Idiots, begone!
Okay I Googled "enigmatic knowing smile" and a ton of Mona Lisa photos came up. Really? I've always thought Mona Lisa's smile was one of patience, calmness and benevolence. Like she's some tai-tai that just had afternoon tea and is now happily being painted.
I've got more photos, but they're all in my phone.
All the photos above are taken with my phone, which is why the quality isn't that good. Don't ask me why I haven't been using my camera... That's another story for another day.
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Friday, October 21, 2011
Day 17
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 17 — An Art Piece That Has Something To Do With Pokémon
N/A lazy to do this.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Dear Girl From My Childhood
The first and only time you and I met was when I was 10-going-11. It was in November, and it was the holidays then and I was waiting to move into my next academic year (as were you). You were 13 then. I had thought you were the prettiest person I had ever seen in my whole, short life.
I still remember your name. I still remember your face. I still remember your huge, beautiful eyes.
This is going to sound incredibly creepy but I still look you up on Facebook once in a long while. I even know your blog link (but I can't view it because you set it to private, damn). When I'd met you, I wanted to be just like you. On the trip I met you, you bought a skirt. The next day I got the same one too, despite even the smallest size was still too loose to fit the hips of a child - my hips.
I remember the way you teased and your modest lies. Maybe you were ashamed of your academic inferiority... But I never thought you were bad. I had always thought you were cool. I still do.
As the years went by and your makeup started to pile on thicker and thicker, the girl I knew from then had changed. You look different now, generic, makeup too much and a little scary. But I know beneath it all you're still as beautiful as those years ago.
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First Thursday of Y1S2
A quick update because it's late and I have to head to bed soon.
6 hours of classes straight today, with no breaks at all. The classes were okay but Gracomm was so dry and disorganised. I cannot really remember a lot of what was taught to us because everything flowed like a novella, with no chapters. It was just information intake the whole time without any clear distinction between each skill we have learnt.
Luckily, class ended early so I made it on time for my Contemp Jazz class. I was the earliest in fact. Well the class was okay but I'm not looking forward to the warm up, crunches, leg lifts and all. We were taught some moves like pas de bourée, neutral/first/second position and some kick thing. And the thing is..... I HAVE LEARNT ALL THOSE THINGS BEFORE ALREADY. Pas de bourée and kick thing from the Street Jazz course, the positions from ballet when I was young. Although I haven't mastered them but it's a little stifling to have to do all those things again. Things, I'm sure, will improve once we get started on the choreography. What song we will be using remains a mystery to me.
Meeting Ms Chua tomorrow (well, next morning really) at Fuhua. Lunch with Zexun then LocVid class. Finally I have to go home. Why? Because the last episode of mega-serial 爱 will be airing at 7 PM sharp. HAWHAWHAW
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Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Day 16
Hi. Hi. I haven't died. It didn't flood into the city yet while I was at Bangkok so all (well, a considerably well-sized portion of the trip) was fine. I feel so sorry for the people living there, to have to go through all this pain/inconvenience. We should really be thankful Singapore is invulnerable to most natural disasters except really heavy rains that might flood places. Like that Tanglin Mall flood that caused the Nando's people to start purging the water out. Hahaha
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 16 — Least Favorite Pokémon Type
A least favourite type - don't have one. I think I always go for the in-between and very seldom the extremities. There are only a few things I like a lot or dislike a lot.
I guess I don't really like the Normal type, because it seems pretty lame. I mean it's resistant against Ghost type attacks but that's about it. I always associate Normal type to lousy Pokémon such as:
Pidgey
Zigzagoon
Okay to be fair Pidgey evolves into Pidgeotto and then Pidgeot which I suppose are not bad. But that's also because Pidgey is a dual-type - Normal and Flying. Which makes it a little better than other noob Pokémon you encounter at the very beginning, such as Zigzagoon. AND RATTATA.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
MY SISTER IS NOT IN THE STATE/COUNTRY NOW HEHEHE.
But I have nothing to say to her (yet).
Have been really patronising about the past few installments of the 30 Day Letter Challenge. I'm getting a little bit lazy about it but the thing is there isn't really a topic I feel very strongly about, so I don't really feel like writing... And then some are about people/things I don't want to write about anymore.
I've got some photos from Bangkok, well mostly just things I bought. I'll post them up next time :)
Adele's Someone Like You is stuck in my head (the chorus, that is). Took to YouTube just now to listen to songs, just random ones. Oh music, you've always been here for me. You've never needed anything from me and never whined when I neglected you after you helped me get up again. Truly a selfless friend.
Just now I listened to...
If - Bread
大哥 - Janice Vidal (one of my favourite Cantonese songs!)
Firework - Katy Perry
I Think Of You - Tata Young
Don't Lie - Black Eyed Peas
If We Ever Meet Again - Timbaland ft Katy Perry
Sexy Naughty Bitchy - Tata Young (I LOVE THIS SONG. Was always ashamed to admit it hahaha)
Don't Phunk With My Heart - Black Eyed Peas (Last time I listened to this was YEARS ago. I just watched the music video. It was SO CREATIVE!!!)
Anyone else agrees that every single member of the Black Eyed Peas is immensely talented?
Listened to one more song also. Well, I won't expound on it but let's just say it brought back A LOT of memories and emotions. And you know what's the queerest thing about it? I don't even have the song in my iPod. I've only listened to it once before, ever, and I broke into tears before it even finished playing then. Listening to it just moments ago, everything rushed back all too clearly. Crystal clear, like a HD movie (/chuckles at self/). Music is amazing.
School started today (for me) and it was pretty all right. Better than all right, in fact. MarComm was rather riveting, I didn't expect myself to enjoy it so much but I did. Our lecturer was nice too :) Was late for GraComm after that cos I went for lunch at Bukit Panjang Plaza with the class. And then, it was LocVid. I'm really looking forward to getting started on the projects! Gonna start observing the camera angles in great films from now on. It's time to pop in some of my favourite movies and watch them again!
Okay, school starts late tomorrow wheeee
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Friday, October 14, 2011
the wood dog
THE WOOD DOG 1934 AND 1994
Wood Dogs are well-rounded individuals. They are adaptable,
flexible and laid back. However, they are not as independent as other
Dogs and like being part of the group. This is due in part to the support
they crave, but it also makes them feel secure and self-confident. In
return, they are faithful friends, shy at first, then warm and affectionate.
SAGITTARIAN DOG
Loyal and giving, Sagittarian Dogs are more active than
other Dogs. They enjoy a good long hike in the woods or a river-rafting
trip. Anything adventurous will do.
Really? More active than other Dogs?
I agree about the adventurous part, though.
Bye.
If I am not back on Tuesday, it means I might possibly have drowned in Bangkok, Thailand.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Hello. I met up with Terry earlier in the afternoon yesterday and I went to buy my shoes from Vans at Cineleisure. Hope they're comfy enough for dance. We walked around and talked, then sat down at KFC to talk more. I finally tried KFC's chocolate egg tarts, they were quite nice though I suppose they remind me a lot of the egg tarts from Fancy Delight at IMM. Suddenly I miss them and I feel like having some.
We headed over to Ngee Ann City afterwards and had dinner at Seoul Garden with the class (formerly T110, now T105).
All the photos are from Vanessa's Facebook.
Aravin and Izzy
Dynn and Michelle
Davin and Terry
Theo
Theo and I. I think I look terrible
Josh came a while later after his work. Happy belated birthday!!
That's about all the people who went. Phoebe and Vanessa aren't in any of the photos! Michelle's girlfriend came later as well.
Joyce wasn't there, wished she was around.
Aravin having some squid hahah
Aravin and I had a hearty conversation about Pokémon and Mdm Oen. LOL. How coincidental is it that Mdm Oen would transfer to his school (Seng Kang Secondary) after leaving mine? And that his brother knows Mdm Oen too, being from New Town Secondary, where Mdm Oen reigned before moving on to Fuhua. Hahaha
Terry left halfway to watch a movie with his cousin at Cineleisure.
TSK THEO.
Dinner was not bad I guess although there was way too much meat for my liking ha. I guess most people don't like veggies.
So after dinner, we decided to go to a pub. Michelle left with her girlfriend so eight of us - Dynn, Aravin, Josh, Theo, Davin, Vanessa, Phoebe and I - went.
The pub was across the road from Hard Rock Café. When we got there and made our way in I suddenly felt very self-conscious, everyone around looked so much older and surely, they'd be able to tell we look like kids?
The place we went to was Cuscaden Patio Café & Pub. It wasn't what I thought a pub was like at all, Phoebe told me this was a makeshift pub, not really like a real pub or bar. It was like in this shopping complex and the pub was on the basement floor and there was a pool table next to its shop space. And then they set up tables and chairs around, in the corridors next to shops that have already closed. Not that it was bad or anything but I thought all pubs were like those you see on TV, with people sitting and drinking at the counters and such haha. In an actual room. So I suppose it was rather intriguing.
Upon sitting down the waiter immediately asked for our ICs LOL. Those who were of age showed their cards and the rest of us kids didn't. So us kids weren't allowed to order alcoholic drinks. Dynn, Josh and Aravin shared a jug of beer.
Phoebe got Aravin to help her buy a drink. She got a Bailey's. We passed it around and I took a sip and then declared, "It tastes like antibiotics" HAHAHA. But the aftertaste was pretty good.
She also got another drink, the name of which I can't recall (Corley? Corlua?). Got wedges (which Davin paid for) and shared.
We left soon after and Terry came to look for us. Then we all left for home and Terry drove me home.
I hope it's not the onslaught of PMS that's making me feel this but I feel like shit.
Still, I'm trying my best to remain positive and not think about bad stuff. So unlike how I used to be right? But then there are things that still stay the same, like how self-conscious I am and how I always, always feel like I never fit in.
Yesterday I was talking to Puiling on Twitter and she told me I'm an interesting person and that she reads my blog. Hahaha I know she will read this eventually. Thank you so much. I miss those days in Sec 1, where we drew on you-know-who's skirt.
I feel like when I write on my blog I'm always writing for my friends from Fuhua to read. When I was writing the paragraph on Aravin and Mdm Oen just now I was fighting the urge to type "... transfer to his school (Seng Kang Secondary) after leaving ours", instead of "mine". We have all graduated and we've all moved on into the next stages of our lives, JC, poly, whatever-it-is. I'd like to think I acclimatize to change easily but the truth is, I don't at all. I don't.
Nobody understands the depth of my sentimentality.
Everyone likes to believe they're different because they want to stand out from the crowd. And it is true, that everyone is different and no two people are the same. But then there are people who are common, which is the reason why we have that fine line between "mainstream" and "obscure". When am I ever gonna step over the line? I'm sick of being in the "obscure".
I know I'm special and I know I'm very different but I just can't put my finger on what. Can someone tell me? And I love it, I love knowing I am different from others, it makes me feel like I'm on a different level (not that I feel superior, I just feel... Unique). At times, though, I get so sick of being different because it means I feel like I never fit in. When am I going to stop feeling like an outsider looking in?
I wish there was somewhere I could fit in without compromising my identity.
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Day 15
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 15 — Favorite Pokémon Fanfic
Again, I don't read Pokémon Fanfics. I don't read any Fanfics for that matter. I think they're unreal, dramatic and biased.
I don't want to accept anything other than the actual show, which is turning out to be a disappointment right now. But I like the old series and when people write fanfics about them depicting unrealistic situations like Misty and Brock falling in love....... I just get all -_-
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
I don't know what's wrong with this 30 day letter challenge. I think the themes of each day's letter are so similar to the ones before/after it. What's the point of writing a letter based on another theme when it's addressed to the same person(s) as the letters before?
Refuse to do today's challenge.
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Monday, October 10, 2011
Day 14
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 14 — Favorite Pokémon Tumblr
Not applicable, because I am not using Tumblr. In fact, I don't really like Tumblr >:( Breeds lazy writers.
But my favourite Pokémon Twitter has got to be Professor Oak's! Sadly it is not updated. But reading the old tweets is fun!
"ProfOak Professor Oak
Today for dinner it's eggplant parmigiana, prepared by magmar. It's a little charred, but delicious!
23 Oct"
Hahaha so cute and there are tons of other tweets like that too.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
On a random note I can't stop thinking about one of the sounds that a Sim on Sims Social make when talking to another Sim. "Mehhh.... Ketaniku weh, jimbazee, where's the net?" SOUNDS LIKE THAT. If you play The Sims Social you'd know what I mean. But I'm getting sick of it already.
It is practically a given that in life that you will have to suffer with the pain of having someone drift away from you at least once, but more often than not, more than once.
A friend (who, ironically, I have drifted apart from) once told me something. She said, "Friends come and go in life, and there's nothing you can do about it. All you can do it accept it."
The strange thing about me is how I have drifted away from not just one, two, or even three persons, but I have drifted away from almost everyone I know. I really do have very few friends that I still talk to actively or constantly.
And then I wonder why. Is it my fault? Have I been too reticent? Why do my friendships with people not stand the test of time? Is it my feelings that have changed while the other person has always been standing at the same spot, absolute?
Lately I've been wondering why my friendships don't really stay. Just like most others, I've had friends in my life I felt I could connect to well emotionally. Sadly, now, none of them are close to me at all. We have all drifted apart like Milo Powder on the surface of hot water (I know this is a weird simile, but this is the one I thought of immediately, a pile of Milo powder breaking into chunks upon contact with water).
Did the people I felt close to not feel close to me at all? There's no way of measuring how much someone else feels for you. And then I ask myself and God and random beings unlucky enough to be around when I'm brooding about this, "Why?! Why!? Why!?!??!?" At times I feel it is not fair. How come everyone else has best friends but I don't? And it isn't like I have nothing to offer.
I get all envious when I see pictures of people with their friends on Facebook, or blog posts about friends hanging out. Yes, it has come to that. I am that jealous.
And then sometimes I really envy some female bloggers. No, I am not referring to Xiaxue. Her blog is a commercial bore, has been since ages ago. I read the blogs of these girls. They party a lot and they might not be very educated, but they're there for each other and they always have fun together. They can have sleepovers and just laugh doing things like trying on sunglasses and clothes. I can't even remember the last time I laughed at something stupid I did or my friend did. I can't even remember the last time I laughed so hard I couldn't stop. And it is sad because I can't remember when the last time I was... But I can remember that I have done it before. I can remember what it all felt like.
I know this post isn't really about 'someone I've drifted away from'. I don't wanna talk about it, to choose and write about a specific person or persons, because there are too many people I've drifted away from, and yes it hurt me a lot to have drifted away from them, whether it was my fault or theirs. Losing a friend, a good friend, is always deplorable. And that happened to me ten times over and more. Can you imagine? I know most people cannot, it doesn't happen to most people. Partly it's my own fault. I feel close to people too easily.
THIS IS A PLEA TO THE UNIVERSE:
SEND ME A NEW BEST FRIEND NOW!!!!!
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Sunday, October 9, 2011
Day 13
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 13 — Your Favorite Season
Definitely the Original Series, Kanto and Johto :) Actually I don't remember much about the Johto League, I watched almost all the episodes for Kanto, and some for Orange Islands. The ones I watched from the Johto League were all from the tele in the past
Kanto, to me, is the greatest because it holds SO much emotion and realism. The relationships Ash/Misty/Brock forged with people throughout their journey were believable and enjoyable to watch, and the relationships they formed with one another were even more so. It's great to see Brock hovering over Ash and Misty like a big brother, great to see Ash and Misty squabbling and denying they have a crush on each other HAHA. And how Brock and Ash would shake their heads at Misty when her temper acts up or when she starts daydreaming.
As you all should know, I find Tracey Sketchit to be plain and very unremarkable, so the Orange Islands episodes were not as fun to watch for me.
As you all should also know I dislike the episodes where Brock and Misty are not around with Ash. So I don't like the newer seasons!
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
I wish everyone whom I have hurt, could forgive me. HAHAHA
I really cannot think of anyone. I know I've hurt many people but I can't pick on one.
OH NO IT'S 1AM
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
How I miss those simple days
I'm talking to Kwanboon on Skype now (how rare it is for me to go on Skype hahaha). Miss those days in Prefects.
I really loved the Council whole-heartedly. I'm not trying to praise myself or anything, but really.
"Jing Yong complained that Ben Chia had a BBQ smell on him which made her nauseous. She told Heang Gee about it (because she didn't want to tell Joshua LOL)."
Totally wanted to laugh when I saw this, going back to the post after Kwanboon mentioned it. The two of them used to HATE each other then. Thinking about it now, it's kind of funny. And Ben Chia got angry too, because once during a camp he accidentally spilled some Milo on Jing Yong and she said he "drenched her with Milo" and he got angry because he did not literally drench her with Milo.
I MISS YOU GUYS, EVERYONE, even those that got expelled from Council or quit eventually. Those were the days. Even though I might not be close to everyone but because we made those memories together, they just feel special to me. Special in a different way.
I had dinner with 小姨 and Shun at Bugis today. Reading my archives, especially the ones from Sec 2, makes me think repeatedly - "How I miss those simple days". Of course I had my gripes then and I got upset and worried about certain issues but they seem so trivial now, now that I've passed them. It's like I've walked a distance on a long stretch of road and now I'm looking back at the signs and rocks from the road already-traveled and they seem so small and far away now. I know as I grow older I will worry and upset about even bigger things although the things I face now seem huge enough already. I must stay strong.
The way I used to behave was so silly and childish at times. But at that point in time I really thought I was somewhat mature, or at least more mature than the people around me, because that's what certain people told me sometimes. It's only been 2, 3 years since Sec 2 but I feel like I have grown up a lot since then. And then in a few years I'm gonna be thinking I've grown up a lot since now too.
Anyway... We had dinner at Uncle's Kitchen, which is situated on the basement floor of Bugis Junction. Ate the usual, as did everyone else. Talked about a lot of things with my aunt and I feel like she's a really lovely person. At times I wish she was my mother but I know that is not possible :) She is very hip and multi-talented! She knows how to make teddy bears (REALLY nice ones) and do a bunch of craft stuff. She also learned how to do nail design.
I also went back to eat fishball noodles at the coffee shop near Fuhua (red chair coffee shop, as some of us used to call it haha. Or was it blue chair? Hmm). The auntie just closed, but she cooked the noodles for me cos I wanted to eat them :) I told her that Christine, Jayda, Elycia and Jovin want to come back and eat too but we haven't set a date. We've got to go back! I know you guys are probably not reading this though.
Afterwards, G accompanied me for a hair cut at a salon in the area. My hair feels so short now, about two to three inches are gone.
I wonder who still reads my blog. I know there are some of you out there, like Kwanboon for instance cos he would tell me he read my blog sometimes haha. And I know how many page views I get so there must be others out there reading. Please tell me if you guys do? There's nothing to be shy about. You can even tell me how boring my blog is compared to Sec 2 cos there were pictures then and all I do now is ranting and ranting and ranting. Hahaha
There is this person (well, more than one person actually) out there that I wish I could still be friends with. WELL when it comes to all the not-friends-anymore-but-wish-we-could-be-friends-again people, there are always reasons why we are not friends anymore. These reasons are also why I don't approach these people.... Because things may be awkward, weird, strange, bad or even (seemingly) downright impossible between us.
But you people must know this. Whatever the state of the relationship between us is, because of whatever it was that occurred in the past, if you have once known I considered you important... There is a place in my heart (or mind, at least) where a piece of you resides. I know this might seem like I'm contradicting what I said in one of my previous posts about how I no longer care for my closest friends (even if I've drifted from them), but this is different. Because this is all the memories we share and fact is I really do miss those days. As time goes by, you and I and everyone would (slowly but) surely change, but I'll always remember and appreciate the way things were back then, the way you were back then that made me love you so much and all the wonderful things we did together. Even if you have changed now to someone different, I'll still cherish the memories we had in the past forevermore.
Makes me feel so dumb sometimes cos when I think about these people so much... I wonder if they think about me too. These people are really special to me and I wonder if they see me as someone special too.... I hope you do but I can't hope for much.
Have a good weekend, everyone.
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Friday, October 7, 2011
Day 12
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 12 — Whatever Tickles Your Fancy
Whatever tickles my fancy? Gonna skip this day's challenge, that's what I fancy. Hahaha
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Being a highly sensitive person has a lot of downsides. I've got this book titled "The Highly Sensitive Person" (which, by the way, I have yet to finish) which talks about how to accept being a highly sensitive person, and the perks of it as well.
It's through reading this book that I realised I am not a highly sensitive person. I am a rather sensitive person. So if a highly sensitive person scores 10 on the scale of sensitivity, I'd probably be a 7 or 8.
It means I get overwhelmed very easily. The strangest things make my eyes fill up and having too many stimulants tire me out. I cannot sleep if there is a certain amount of light, even when I slept in school last time I'd always position my arms and head such that my eyes will be exposed to as little light as possible. It also means I react to small occurrences very strongly/emotionally.
I'm sure we've all used the word "hate" all-too-casually ("Omg I hate Chem") but when it comes down to it, I think most people don't actually hate a person. It's a huge emotional investment that hardly brings any rewards. Maintaining a hatred is exhausting.
But pain, definitely. I feel it all too easily, way too easily.
Honestly, if there's anyone who caused me the most pain......... It has got to be me, myself and I. Why? Because no one can let you feel anything unless you let them. Isn't it true?
Often I used to get sad about things easily, but what's even worse is I let myself wallow around in sadness, self-pity and torment. Because hiding in a corner licking your own wounds, is easier than standing up and having courage to face reality. In the face of adversity, I frequently skedaddled. It takes me a long time to store up courage (or wait till I've licked my own wounds too much), just like how a grass Pokémon takes one turn to store sunlight for the Solarbeam attack. Only I take maybe too many turns.
I used to say things like... "I don't think I'm deserving of happiness. (Sounds emo but I don't care)"
But now I know I gotta be strong. I have to start believing in myself and stop hurting myself all the time. If you treat yourself terribly, how do you expect others to treat you well? I don't wanna be so dependent on other people and the way they treat me. The root of your happiness shouldn't always be in the things other people do for you. We all ought to start with ourselves.
Have to be strong.
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Thursday, October 6, 2011
Day 11
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 11 — Your Favorite Pokémon Type
It has got to be water or psychic. My love for water Pokémon is inspired largely by Misty, who loves water Pokémon too. Whenever I play Pokémon, I always, always pick the water starter Pokémon. I never pick fire because it just gives me a feeling of 'rashness' hahaha. And grass seems plain to me... So I like water best.
There is a quote about water from Memoirs of a Geisha that I love:
Water never waits. It changes shape and flows around things, and finds
the secret paths no one else has thought about -- the tiny hole through
the roof or the bottom of the box. There's no doubt it's the most
versatile of the five elements. It can wash away earth; it can put out
fire; it can wear a piece of metal down and sweep it away. Even wood,
which is its natural complement, can't survive without being nurtured by
water.
I was a little sad to know that my element, unlike Sayuri, isn't water hahaha. :< Oh well
I like psychic second best, sometimes best because it gives me a feeling of smartness. Psychic Pokémon, somehow, are all known to be smart.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Refer to Day 9, where I mentioned all but one of the people I wish I could meet are dead. The only one living is Johnny Depp.
The others are: Princess Diana, Audrey Hepburn, Sylvia Plath, Anne Frank and Michael Jackson.
Of them all, I think I'd want to meet Anne Frank the most, because she's around my age, so she'd be easier to talk to. Although I'm really curious about Sylvia Plath, she seems a little flippant so I would be apprehensive about meeting her too.
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Day 10
It's 11 PM as I type this and I've got a tepid cup of cocoa next to me. I actually wanted to drink some warm milk cos it helps you to sleep better but the switch to turn on the power for our microwave is spoilt so I did the next best I could which was cocoa powder + oats + milk + hot water. Can't possibly have a solution of water and milk, can I? Yeuch I can only imagine how horrible that tastes.
Last night I went to bed at around a quarter to eleven and it was a restless night. Sleep decided to reveal itself to me at only perhaps near 3 AM? And even then it was a light sleep because I woke up again around 5 AM. And again at 7 AM. In the end I threw myself out of bed at 8 AM and went jogging. Er, it was more of like a jog-walk-jog-walk-walk-walk really HAHA.
Every time I go jogging, I am reminded of why I hate it. I guess the only good thing that came out of this was I got some exercise but halfway through the jog I felt faint like I was going to throw up. Honestly, I think my body isn't built for running/jogging.
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 10 — Your Favorite Pokémon
Bellossom!
Actually up till recently I couldn't decide what my favourite Pokémon was because I had a few I really liked but I didn't know which one exactly I liked best. Until lately as I have returned to Pokémon Sapphire, I came across Bellossom in a trainer battle. I'm sold. Isn't cute? I know it's not a water- or psychic-type (two of my favourite types amongst others) but it's so adorable. Like a little hula girl!
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Tons of people fall into this category, really.
I'm not really the kind of person who initiates conversations (anymore). I don't know how, why and when I changed to be like this but that is how it is now... So I'm really sorry if there are people out there who wish they were closer to me or anything. Although I don't take the first move to text people but I'm always up for texting!!! I ALWAYS reply my texts. Even if I don't, I'd get to you some other way somehow.
There are some people whom I wish I could talk more to, but I don't even dare talk to them cos I wonder if they even think about me anymore. And if I do text them, would they think I'm bothering them?
I gotta go out now so this post has to end here. My mum wants to go out for supper and I feel like I have to oblige her cos she's been really unhappy these few days.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Day 9
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 9 — A Poke-related Photo You Took
There.
That was from 2009, I searched my old blog to see if I took any Poke-related photos haha. If not I was going to skip this.
This is Brendan's plush toy, if I don't recall wrongly. Took this on Orientation night, after the concert and all. And yes, that's the Prefects' Room.
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Trying to finish this in 8 minutes because I want to sleep early tonight, in an attempt to sort out my body clock. Shall set the alarm for 9.30 AM tomorrow morning so I can go swimming or jogging.
For a while I thought about who I wish I could meet. Initially when I glanced through the list of letter titles and saw this one, the people that popped into my mind ranged from "Princess Diana" to "Audrey Hepburn" to "Anne Frank". Those are people I can truly relate to. I'm not saying I'm like them, I just feel they are so humane.
If you're a Myers-Briggs personality profile reader though, you might realise that Princess Diana, Audrey Hepburn and Anne Frank are all INFPs... Like me. Still, I cannot help but feel they are much better people than I am.
However, I do not share the same Ennegram type as any of them. Being a type 4, my fellow type 4s include but are not limited to: Michael Jackson, Johnny Depp and Sylvia Plath. And from there, each type can have two sub-types. For type 4s, you can be a 4w3 or 4w5 (I hope all of this makes sense).
Michael Jackson is a 4w3. Johnny Depp's sub-type cannot be confirmed because people keep arguing about it, some say he's 4w3, some say he's 4w5. Same with Sylvia Plath although more people consider her to be a 4w5.
But the scary thing is this... All the people I wish I could meet have a few things in common: they are emotional, have a tendency to be depressed and some of them have been suicidal.
The scariest of all, I feel, has to be Sylvia Plath. She attempted suicide a few times and one of those times brought her death... She placed her head in the oven and turned the gas on. She died when she was 30. Everyone knows Michael Jackson has problems. Johnny Depp used to cut himself. Depression found Princess Diana when she was attached/married to Prince Charles. Audrey Hepburn suffered from depression and malnutrition.
Yet despite all this, I still want to meet them because they feel like such special, humane people. Despite all their emotions running amok, they are also known as very kind and feeling people. Which is why I want to meet them.
Ironically, of these 6 people I wish I could meet, 5 are dead. Johnny Depp, I'm pinning my hopes on you. ;)
Argh it's 11.44 PM. Overshot my time limit.
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Day 8
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 8 — A Poke-related Photo That Makes You Angry/Sad
Picture says it all.
I have never watched Pokémon Black and White, but I don't need to watch it to know that Ash can have better traveling companions in MISTY AND BROCK than these two. Urgh.
Five words: Bring Misty and Brock back.
Misty is obviously better than this uncivilized jungle girl Iris and Brock is definitely cooler than green-haired Cilan (who has many similarities to Brock, e.g. first gym leader of their regions. OBVIOUSLY you all are trying to replicate Brock!!!! Don't even try, please).
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
What is considered a favourite internet friend?
Meh. Don't have one. Skip.
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Ask and you shall receive. This is really true! And you have to believe it will happen. So glad I got what I asked for lalala
It's 2.36 PM now. I woke up around an hour ago. Can you believe it??? When I woke up and looked at the bedside clock I got a rude shock - 13:46. My mum has been nagging at me lately about how I keep waking up late. Usually I'd wake up around 12 but a few days ago it got shifted back a little to 12.30 PM. Can't believe I'm waking up at a quarter before two. Maybe it's normal to some people to wake up in the afternoon during the holidays but that's not how it's supposed to be for me. My mum always looks down on those people who sleep late/wake up late because she thinks they're lazy, wasting their time and spoiling their health. Sometimes it upsets me because I look around and everyone's like "Oh I just woke up" on Twitter at 3 PM or "Off to bed, good night world!" at 5 AM?!
Have got to arrange my body clock :/ Secondary school was the best hahaha I always slept 11 at latest in lower secondary and 12 at latest in upper secondary. If not I won't get enough sleep (always have to wake up at 6.20 AM the latest the next day).
Despite going for facial just two days ago my complexion hardly improved. Usually when I go my face gets better by leaps and bounds. I think it's because I keep sleeping late and now my complexion is so crappy. And maybe also because the beautician that attended to me the last time I went for facial wasn't Agnes. I really like Agnes. The beautician that helped me this time round is more pushy than Agnes is (in trying to get me to sign up for the facial package haha). She helped me trim my eyebrows too but it doesn't look much different and I think she didn't do it properly. She just used an eyebrow razor - and she didn't even cut it off properly because when I got home, I could see short strands of eyebrows where she supposedly cut off to form the eyebrow shape. Now I have to pluck it off on my own using a tweezer. Next time I go back I'm definitely getting Agnes.
Also thought of going for treatment where Ohsofickle's Tammy gets hers done. Well yeah she's sponsored but the results really seem great. She even went without makeup a day or two after she did the treatment. A few months back I went bowling at Superbowl with Wuying, Magdalene, Kenny and Lizheng, and Wuying was complaining that makeup was worsening her complexion. Mag and I told her to not wear it so often but Wuying said she doesn't want to cos she'd feel ugly (? can't remember the exact word) without. Not that I wear makeup but I think if you can get a girl who wears
makeup to go without for a day or two, that's saying something, so maybe the treatment is really good.
I jolted awake just now because I had to rush down to deposit my allowance for the month. I'd thought they collected the cheques at 2 PM. I jumped out of bed, rushed to my bathroom to brush my hair a little and ran down to get my cheque. I wrote my details on the back and ran down to deposit the cheque (when I got there I realised they collect it at 3.30 PM lol) - all this done while I was still wearing the boxer-shorts I wear at home LOL. Usually I'd change into FBTs but this time I was afraid I didn't have enough time. Sometimes when I go down to the bank, NTUC, or for food I hope I don't bump into anyone I meet because I'm dressed terribly, in my home clothes. Ah, the perks of studying at a school next to your house.
I'll do my best to finish up Pokémon Sapphire quickly cos it's taking up so much of my time and I can't do anything else but play it. When I finish it I'll be able to get on to other more important stuff.
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Monday, October 3, 2011
Day 7
Hi! I didn't post yesterday because I woke up late, went for facial and when I got back home I spent the rest of my day training my Swablu/Gardevoir/Kadabra in Pokémon Sapphire. I might post another day's worth of letters to make up for yesterday.
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 7 — A Poke-related Photo That Makes You Happy
This is the episode I was referring to that was really touching. After some searching, I managed to find out that this episode is called "Snow Way Out!".
I actually managed to find a photo of Ash with tears in his eyes (it happened a few seconds after this photo) but I couldn't find it when I clicked on the link. I found all of the photos on Google, by the way.
I guess if any photo makes me happy, this would have to be it. I wish I had friends like that I wish I could have Pokémon that would be my friends I wish Pokémon existed LOL.
The next photo is random, just putting it here cos I find it funny.
People who have watched this episode would know what it's about. Ash cross-dressed to try and make his way into the Celadon Gym because he'd offended Erika, the gym leader, and could not go in as himself. Team Rocket gave him the idea of cross-dresing and now they're teaching him how to speak and sound like a girl. This was from the episode "Pokémon Scent-sation!".
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
When school started for real, people would ask questions to know one another better. Sometimes there are things you might wanna know that you can't ask right off the bat because they're too personal. So we always wait till we've gotten to know the other person a little bit before asking them the slightly more personal questions.
"Cam," some people have asked some weeks into school (yes people call me Cam or Huien not Sophie anymore hahahahah actually perhaps I should have stuck to Sophie but I changed it cos Fendi kept relating it to the sanitary pad >:( ), "How many ex-boyfriends have you had?"
"Two" was what I told Terry when he asked me this question. "... But the first one wasn't really serious." And then Terry said if it wasn't serious it doesn't count.
I laughed and said, "Okay, one then," thereby obliterating my first boyfriend from my "List of Ex-Boyfriends".
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People do not usually ask me about my first ex-boyfriend because I'm known for being hung up over the second one, but if you're from the same school and graduating year as I am, chances are you'd know who my first ex-boyfriend is. He shares the same name as a certain country.
Having written so extensively about my second ex-boyfriend, I've decided to write about my first ex-boyfriend in this post instead.
When I say my first ex wasn't serious, I don't mean to say I dated him with the intention to jilt him eventually or anything like that. I really did like him, I liked him on-and-off for nearly a whole year (in Sec 1). The strangest thing was, when he did like me back (in Sec 2), I didn't like him as much anymore. I did still like him, just not as much as I did before.
Still we got together and we eventually fell into the same clique (there were 4 or 5 of us) and soon thereafter I broke up with him.
I cannot remember how it all went but even after we broke up we were still friends. Surely, it was awkward at first but time passed and we became close friends again. I've always felt that we got even closer after we broke up. In a way, I was thankful for the breakup because I don't think we would have been as close as we were if it didn't happen.
What I didn't know was that he still liked me. (I learned about this only a long time after we graduated, can you imagine how long this was?) In Sec 3 when we all split into different classes we swore we would all still stay close. In the whole clique, I always felt closest to him (bah for convenience's sake let's call him S).
I never felt close to the other guy, Junyuan, because he always seemed a little detached from us and it seemed like he was there partly because he was close to S. Joelly and Christine were best friends and when we hung out I felt like the odd one out sometimes. Back then Christine bitched about me sometimes also (if you're reading this, Christine, I know you did and I was really angry but don't worry I'm not angry anymore hahaha) and we would have "Cold War" periods where we didn't speak. S, you were the only one in the whole clique I felt I could trust completely.
Sec 2 year was nearing the end and we were going to face the inevitable: streaming (into different classes, that is). It made me really afraid because I've heard so much from the seniors about how they drifted from their lower-secondary friends just because they got streamed into different classes. So I made S promise to talk to me often in Sec 3 so we would remain close. So he promised me, over MSN. I tried joking about it like it didn't mean much to me but it did mean a lot, a lot to me. I sort of cried a little then, in front of the laptop ._. I remember all this because I blogged about it that day.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
S WRD, on 23rd August 2008 at 12.50am, promised to talk to me a lot next year. Shall he breach the contract, he will be gay.
Hahaha.
I cried because of this.
But only a bit so it's fine.
I DON'T LIKE CHINESE.
Well I... don't know what to say. Bye.
8:18 PM
And if you remember, you blogged about the same thing too, only with my name. But I know you forgot about it. Why? Because we hardly spoke at all the next year.
After I got together with my second ex, S distanced himself from me and we drifted apart. But come on, S, you know I was sad about it because I blogged about us drifting apart. You responded to one of my posts on your blog and I know it cos I SAW it.
We were never close friends again.
But although we drifted apart, you always had a special place in my heart - the place in my heart where my closest friends reside, friends drifted apart or not. When you're close to someone, it's like they have a piece of you, and even if one day they are not around anymore, they will still always have the piece of your heart. All the friends of mine who had this piece — who had their place in the Land of my Best Friends — were the ones I knew I would always love and protect no matter what.
Today, this land no longer exists and you are one of the reasons why.
The Land was established with some basic tenets. One of them was: I would always love and protect the occupants of this place even if we are no longer close. Because I believed that whoever had the ability to make their way into the Land was special and worth holding on to. Unfortunately, you were one of the reasons why this Land is now destroyed.
You are one of the reasons why, because you hurt me. If it makes you feel better though, you might want to know you're not the only one who hurt me though :)
After we graduated, I found out through my own means that S got together with my ex-best friend. She only became my "ex-best friend" for real sometime this year although we were drifting since Sec 3 but before that happened, she got together with S. Against their wishes I found out they got together and at that point in time they were in the stage where they didn't want a lot of people to know about their relationship.
The first thing that made me sad was this: I was one of the people they didn't want to tell. It was only when they realised I knew that they let me know. The second thing: their reaction when they realised I knew.
A mutual friend told me about their reaction... Specifically, S's reaction. S had said something to the effect of how if I knew, the whole world would know too. When I heard that, guess what went through my mind? "What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck." I don't swear a lot but that's really what I thought. True I gossiped a lot in secondary school but I knew you guys didn't want people to know. Guess what? I didn't even tell a single soul, the only people I talked about it with were those I knew already knew about it. So there, screw you.
This made me realise... No matter how you may feel about your friends, if they're treating you like shit when you haven't done a single thing to them, they're not really your closest friends at all.
In early Sec 2 before S and I were even together, Fiona asked me something when she and I were at the bus stop waiting for our bus together. She asked me if I had to pick a guy from our class to marry, who would I pick? I chose you. She asked me, why not Yeowyong or Aaron or Junyuan or whoever? I said, "Because S is really nice and responsible." I didn't say that just because I liked you then, but because I know you really are like that. If I had to pick again now I would still pick you. But...
It does not matter to me now, however nice and responsible you are. It's useless caring for a person who doesn't give a damn about you. Thank you for making me realise that.
Ex-boyfriend and ex-best friend, hope you enjoy your lives together. <<< this is an Emoji by the way I'm testing it out to see if it'll appear on the post
/end of super long post
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Saturday, October 1, 2011
Day 6
30 DAY POKÉMON CHALLENGE
Day 6 — Favorite Pokémon Videogame
The only Pokémon games I've ever played are Pokémon Silver, Pokémon Sapphire and Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Red Rescue Team. Although the storyline was cute, Mystery Dungeon Red was a little repetitive. I guess it's down to Silver or Sapphire but I cannot make up my mind. The last time I played Silver was ages ago, I think when I was P2 or something hahaha. I love the Pokémon from the first three generations, with a stronger preference for the ones of the first two generations. Advanced Generation (which Sapphire and Ruby is based on) had a huge saving grace in the novelty of Pokémon contests. The generations thereafter got too repetitive, with Pokémon that don't seem to have much meaning.
Oh yes, Pokémon really do have strong relations to animals in real life and that's one thing I really love. Like snake-Pokémon Ekans and its evolved form Arbok - smell their names backwards and you'd get "Snake" and "Kobra". Cool, isn't it? A Growlithe, despite its resemblance to a tiger due to its orange fur and black stripes, is actually a dog Pokémon. Which is why you see Officer Jenny with Growlithes (refer to Episode "The Case of the K9 Caper"), and why James from Team Rocket had a Growlithe when he was young and living with his affluent family (Episode "Holy Matrimony!").
Coming to the Advanced Generation and the Hoenn League, I can't help but feel the creators were getting a bit lazy in their work, and the Pokémon introduced in this generation do not seem to be as special as the ones in the older generations. But I guess it's not that bad, after all it's only the third generation. It got really unimaginative after that, in my opinion.
So why not pick Pokémon Silver as my favourite? Because the graphics sucked. Sapphire/Ruby were GOOD. It really set a benchmark for all the Pokémon games thereafter.
Answer: favourite two would be Pokémon Silver and Sapphire. :)
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE
Day 6 — A stranger
I am supposed to write a letter to a stranger.
A quote from somewhere went, "Strangers are friends waiting to happen." While this is true, I would like to point out that it's also fair to say "Strangers are enemies waiting to happen." LOL
Hmm in an attempt to be poetic I shall try writing an English haiku in the 5-7-5 formation
Stranger I see out
Hurry by in a hustle
We will never meet
Okay that did not sound poetic at all :( But I did follow the format!
I think it is true though how people just rush by. It's like seeing someone at the train station, maybe you might take note of their hair or clothes or shoes or whatever. Months later if you saw them again, unless they're really distinctive or you have a really good memory, chances are you won't remember them.
Really do not know how to write this letter so I am going to stop.
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