Monday, September 17, 2012
若那一刻重来我不哭／让他知道我可以很好
Wha cannot stop emoing I don't know why.
Not really emoing I guess, but I do feel overly nostalgic. And we all know where that ends up lol.
Don't you just love and hate the visceral effect of music, how it can bring you back to a moment in time?
For the past hour and half I've been listening to music while studying cos Michelle and Geoffrey are in her bed watching a movie and once in a while they gush and talk about stuff. Okay actually I just looked over and I think they are going to sleep already I still have 12 pages to go before I finish this chapter, and my class is at 8 AM later, I really shouldn't be blogging.
But I need to get this out cos it's bugging me like crazy and I just keep thinking about it while I'm simultaneously absorbing information from my textbook.
It all began with Waking Up In Vegas, Katy Perry chanting "shut up and put your money where your put is/ that's what you get for waking up in Vegas", and then I thought of Cheeyuan. How we all went to kBox that time and I sang this, how I even titled a blog post "shake the glitter" back then. I miss being a part of... something.
And then I wrote "0.7 uni JETSTREAM" on my memo note cos that's the pen I'm using now hahaha. It's the pen Ms Chua gave us during graduation, us meaning 4E4, her form class the year before we graduated. She labelled each pen with this small tag and mine said "RSS news feed", or something like that. I still have that tag in my memorabilia box in Singapore. Do you sense a theme here? Maybe I just miss secondary school a lot. But I wrote the brand of this pen down cos I really love writing with this pen, cos it's comfortable and my handwriting looks good while I'm using it HAHAHA.
A few songs later and I got struck by Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway whutttt. "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly/ I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky / And I'll make a wish / take a chance / make a change / and breakaway" It struck me how it's been 8 years since this song came out, God I was P4 when American Idol first came into existence and onto our TV screens. We had to read this newspaper catered for primary school kids, it was a part that came along with our Straits Times subscription in Peihwa, and the centerfold article for one of the issues talked about how we're going to have Singapore Idol too because of how successful American Idol is. I was 9 then and excited at the idea of this hahaha I even wrote about it in my journal to Ms Jennifer Lai (English, Math and form teacher for my fourth year in primary school, also my favorite teacher from Peihwa). Over half a decade has passed since then, God I feel so old. And a lot certainly has changed since then. Like, how American Idol is just really trashy now wtf.
爱我别走, one of my top 10 emo songs came on and further intensified the depth of my emotional state LOL. I only listen to and like the 周杰伦 version of this song. Listened to it like a drug addict pops pills after I broke up with Zhihao cos I was constantly sad then.
And then, ahem, Legend of Mermaid, the theme song from this anime Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch I used to watch in I don't know P5 or P6 started playing. I think in general I just miss being a kid sigh sigh sigh 我怎么这么老了！！！！！
那些年 from the soundtrack of《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》and Hilary Duff's Someone's Watching Over Me were the next two songs, and I don't think I need to explain much about these two songs for you to know how they contribute to the state I'm in now. Okay maybe I do for the latter – I first discovered the song in secondary school and it accompanied me for one emo week before its lack of novelty ceased its frequent run on my iPod.
Okay need to get back to the books or else I'm gonna die in class tomorrow and I really shouldn't be disturbing Michelle and Geoffrey's sleep with the sound of me typing on a keyboard and the light of my table lamp.
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