Saturday, July 14, 2012
you can fall for pretty strangers, and the promises they hold
Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same And I dream your dream for you, and now your dream is real How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?
You can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold You can fall for pretty strangers, and the promises they hold You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know, I used to have a scene with him."
Juliet, when we made love you used to cry I said "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die," And there's a place for us, you know the movie song When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
I can't do the talk, like the talk on the TV And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be I can't do everything, but I'd do anything for you I can't do anything 'cept be in love with you
And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be All I do is keep the beat, the bad company And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time
Forcing myself to write.
So I'm officially not an NP student anymore, and I re-ascertained this fact when I was unable to log into NPConnect with my old NP Student ID and password.
Thinking back about the past almost year and half in poly... It's like time has gone by really fast. Isn't it clichéd but true, how time seems to go by faster as we get older?
I've been thinking a while about the people who helped me get by in poly.
Poly has been boring/tough/fun/interesting, but altogether a rewarding experience. I've been telling people that my only gripe would be that I didn't go to JC to take Literature. But otherwise, my poly experience has been good although incomplete. I've learnt a lot, grew a lot, and changed a lot as a person. I would probably say the same things had I gone to JC but I feel that people change more in poly, since it's a tertiary institute and works differently from JC.
Am going to write a series of posts about people who helped me get by in poly and this will be the first! People mentioned are in no particular order, although there are some that I have intentionally left for later posts.
Christabel
Strangely, Christabel is the first person I'm going to mention and I kind of don't really know why. I guess most people don't know her but Christabel is from DVFX. She's kind of the first real friend I made in poly – we met during FBC 2011 and she was in my sub-tribe. As Day 1 wore on I don't really know how but the both of us just fell together and stuck with each other. We didn't like the other girls cos we thought they were too bitchy and angmoh pai and we couldn't take it, so we just hung out together and bitched about some of them hahaha. Towards the end of the camp we only sort of accepted Sheryl in our group cos we thought she was okay to hang out with. Eventually we started being okay with the others but more time went on and I felt increasingly alienated and strange around everyone else, including Christabel, so I pulled away from my sub-tribe entirely.
I also unfollowed Christabel on Twitter probably a few months back cos she always rage-tweets about her fangirl stuff and I found that annoying, especially since she can't see reason and is usually rather irate. I also couldn't stand her constant tweets about love and liking this guy. I eventually felt she was quite childish so I didn't want to hang out with her anymore. I suppose that seems rather mean, but thank you Christabel for the company at the very beginning of my poly life... It really made things a lot easier, having someone there.
Fendi
What would Spiderman (my FBC 2011 sub-tribe) be without Fendi? He's practically the mascot of our sub-tribe. Without him being so okay with acting gay and hyper, I don't think our sub-tribe would be as bonded as it was. He's a really nice and funny guy.
We don't hang much but he's a friendly person. I appreciate the random moments when we do sort of talk because he's always up to hang out and chill and not like, be all dao and quiet (which is what I would probably do HAHA cos I'd feel awkward). I remember at the start of this semester we were at the Atrium for some reason I don't know why and he just took my phone and we (me, him, Sheryl and Adler) started taking photos. He went to post the photos on my Instagram although I have since deleted all of my Instagram photos in a bout of emotional frenzy... But that's another story for another time.
Adzreen
We don't talk/hang/chill and I don't even know if he remembers me but I remember him because he's one of the best SLs around. Our sub-tribe's camaraderie was, in huge part, due to his efforts. Lately I've heard from Sheryl vaguely about his less-than-great reputation in FMS but he does seem rather friendly. I remember in Year 1 once I tweeted about how I needed an S&W shirt that fits cos mine was humongous and he replied me hahaha. Shawn
I was so glad to have Shawn in the sub-tribe cos I thought, like, whoa thank God there's someone seemingly normal in the sub-tribe HAHAHA. It made me feel more re-assured cos back then first getting into FMS was like a huge culture shock. Although we never really spoke that much but it was nice nonetheless to have someone down to earth around cos back then I thought almost everybody else were crazy. Joyce
My first friend everrrr (like for real) in FMS! I don't think those in my sub-tribe really count as "first friends" cos I drifted from them after the initial weeks of school.
Dear Joyce, when I first met and spoke to you, I thought we were really alike. I was really wary then of everyone around me and after being ditched by Felicia, I was desperate to find a best friend. I thought I could find someone like that in poly and I thought that could be you. I guess we are similar in various ways but not as similar as we thought. We're not close anymore but that's okay. In the past I would get really annoyed with you sometimes cos I thought you were stubborn, uptight and narrow-minded when it came to work sometimes. And you were staunchly Christian and I guess that made you waaaaay more conservative and I have ever been in my life and I think that is the main thing that drove us apart a little.
But at the same time, no one can deny how hardworking you are. I'm sorry for annoying you when I appear not as serious about work as you are, or when I kind of "argue" with you whenever we don't agree on something in work. In Year 1 we grouped together for almost all the modules and I'm thankful to have someone as diligent as you are in my teams. While others are griping and kvetching about how inefficient, irresponsible and lazy their group mates are, I should be thankful that our conflicts all stem from the fact that we want to do well.
Thank you for listening to my complaints (although I started telling you things less and less cos it's like our minds are wired differently and sometimes you just didn't get it) especially in Year 1 Sem 1 when I was like such a huge, whiny bitch most of the time hahaha. Could never have made it past Year 1 without you :-)
That's all for now. Will write more about everyone else soon :-)
