Friday, April 20, 2012
In Sec 3, I'd told my then-best friend I was planning to reject the proposition. The proposition: The guy I had been crushing on had, on Valentine's Day, asked me to be his girlfriend. The reason for rejection: I didn't think it was going to work out, didn't think we knew each other well enough.
"But why?!?!" my then-best friend cried. "Do you know how rare it is to find someone you like, who also likes you?"
That theory had been incomprehensible to my fourteen year old brain because back then. The boys I did like who didn't like me back, I usually stopped liking them after talking to them more and seeing their flaws surface and get clearer. I didn't really like them, I'd think. It was just a crush. Because if you really did like someone for real, you would accept them for who they are, right?
But now that I'm older, I finally understand what she meant. It is indeed difficult to find someone who would reciprocate your feelings. Particularly because as you grow, you get wiser, you become choosier, and so you become warier. You think more deeply into whether you really like someone. Whether it would work out. Sometimes when you do finally develop feelings for someone... It doesn't mean he/she will feel the same way because you think so well of them (most people tend to like others whom they see as better than they are I think?) but because they are better than you are, they'd look to other people who are better than themselves.
Right now, finding someone I seriously like who feels the same way, is proving to be something very difficult. :( But I am not interested in a relationship right now so I guess I shall just try not to care, but who doesn't want to know there's somebody out there who cares for you, and somebody solely for you to care for haha. But it's okay, if nobody wants to love me, I will. (Cheesy as that sounds)
This is just a thought I had when I was leaving school just now.
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