Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Felicia
I wasn't sure where this was supposed to go in the scheme of things but I felt a need to write about this, maybe because this would signify a resolution. So here it goes.
Two Saturdays ago (24 March) I went for ACJC's Fun-O-Rama, which, if you ask me, is quite a sham of an event. I had expected the things to be priced exorbitantly because Zhihao had already forewarned me that the prices would be "inflated", but still I can't believe I wasted $20 on the event. Actually, I can believe it – the whole reason I bought the tickets were so that I would have an excuse to ask Felicia out for dinner/lunch, and to finally have a chance to talk about what happened (or didn't happen, more like) between us over the past year or so.
I was quite ready to go the event, waste my twenty bucks worth of tickets (bought from Zhihao, who was quite desperately trying to sell off his tickets) and just sit there and wait for the whole thing to end. The whole point of going for the event was to meet Felicia, and at most as a side-quest catch up with some of my secondary school friends who had gone to ACJC. My presence was not to take part in the revelry and hype of the event. I'd even told Zhihao, "I think I'm going to just spend my tickets then sit somewhere and read my book."
It's a little pointless to explain the details, but in the end Zexun accompanied me during the event and we hung out in a group with other people like Boonping, Peihan and his girlfriend Yansin. Caught up with people like Darren Koh (I was so happy when we just walked around and talked, he's still the same bear I knew despite having lost some weight hahaha), Simin (mostly she tagged along with Boonping a bit but actually we didn't talk much) and Zhihao (we exchanged lines face-to-face for the first time in YEARS, literally). Ben Chia also went to the event with Peipei but he was a little annoying so I snapped at him. He left after a while (not cos I snapped at him, though).
The above was written on 5 April 2012.
I had to save it as a draft cos.. I can't remember what happened but I got distracted by someone and so I decided to only return to this when I was sure I could give it my full attention. But then I forgot about it and I have only remembered and bothered enough to come back to it only now.
So basically after the whole event I went for dinner with Felicia and Justin (hi I heard you groan now when you bend down HAHA you're old Justin LOL). Although I didn't manage to talk about what I wanted to, that little soiree (which took place at Holland V's Thai Express) made me realise how much we have both changed. Or at least I have. I'm not the same person as I was from over a year back, hopefully I've grown and become better (I honestly can't say if I have but I certainly hope so. I'm less bitter now though, for sure), and she has changed in her own ways as well.
In the car back home as we were nearing my house and I was about to get off and go home, I had whispered "We should meet more, because I'll be leaving in August already" but at the same time I knew this was probably not going to happen. And now nearly a month after since we last met we haven't spoken at all too. Oh well :/
I guess people come and go. I'm glad we were once friends :) I hope you're happy.
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