Friday, November 4, 2011
Today (well, yesterday really) was my busiest day of the week. Classes start at 9 and conclude at 6 PM on Thursdays, and then I've got to rush to town for my hour-long class which ends at 7.30 PM.
When daylight and consciousness claimed me this morning, I stumbled out of bed, thinking I could really do with another hour or two more of sleep. As I mulled over what to wear for school I found myself realising how I couldn't wait to be over with the long day I had ahead of me. What surprised me the most is how when the last of my activities for the day ended, the day didn't completely drain me of my energy like I had expected would happen.
Having lacked an hour or two of my full load of sleep left me sitting near the cranky side of the scale, though.
Gracomm test today was ridiculous, I could not think of anything to draw at all for many of the shapes and ended up drawing rubbish like a storeroom door for the "Sports/Office-related theme" section LOLOL. I felt a bit frantic about it cos I know there are so many great drawers in our class but seeing how the others egged Cassandra on made me laugh and relax a little.
Dance, however, was disappointing today. :( We started on the choreography in the last ten minutes of class but I'm NOT FEELING IT AT ALL. I dunno :( I just don't feel much enthusiasm for the classes like how I did in Carol's class in the past. We spent half the class on warmup today which just totally dampened my mood for class, especially after I had such a fun time learning Fredy's choreography yesterday with Ziqi and Carolyn. YESTERDAY'S CLASS WAS SO FUN, I guess it made today's class pale terribly in comparison.
Shall sum up my week in another post during the weekend.
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Since I'm heading off to bed soon, I'm going to talk about a tweet about Sagittariuses from an astrology Twitter account (Xstrology).
I am a Sagittarius, in case you didn't know. That clues you in to around when my birthday is.
I don't usually re-tweet astrology tweets (nor do I follow any astrology accounts) because I feel astrology is way too general and ambiguous. Some traits of each astrology sign may seem to really hit the nail on the head when it comes to identifying yourself but I don't really see how you can be the same as so many people who are born into the same astrology sign as you are. Also, some traits mentioned are really rather ambiguous, e.g. "Sagittarius will fight for what they believe in", which makes me think, hello, most people would fight for what they believe in, no? I bet it's not just Sagittariuses!
The one and ONLY astrology tweet I have ever re-tweeted is this:
"As a Sagittarius, you will learn the same lesson twice."
SO FRICKING TRUE (although I know it probably doesn't apply to all Sagittariuses and it probably applies to people born out of Sagittarius as well). Very seldom does anything get to me straight at once and usually I'd have to go through the same ordeals two times before I really figure out the message and crux of it all. It's not because I'm stubborn and don't want to change the first time round, it's because whatever it is that I need to learn or know.... Always just makes a greater impact on me the second time.
I'm the kind of person who thinks a lot, my mind is a huge warbled web of thoughts, which is why it takes me longer to get everything sorted out. Add on the fact that I'm born a pessimist and a naturally sad person and BAM, there you have it, an introspective, over-emotional and hypersensitive soul rolled into an approximately 5' 3" frame that is mine. Some people have told me they think I can see things from the big picture, but honestly I don't agree.
For me, self-actualization supposes self-reflection. When I think about issues, I am predisposed to being rather narrow-minded because the peripheral vision of my mind's eyes extends only to a) how I feel about something, which is usually the main focus of what I see, and b) how the people around me who are directly affected/involved in the situation are reacting/behaving/feeling.
One person whom I really admire for his skill of seeing the big picture is Haisong. Whenever I heard the solutions he'd thought up of for the problems we faced in school, Council, etc, I can literally IMAGINE him standing on top of a pedestal, stroking his non-existent beard, looking at the whole mess and trying to procure from an advantageous vantage point. It's hard to explain but I think people who really know him would know what I mean. I wish I could put myself on that kind of level as well, but I know I will never be like Haisong because I'm way too emotional.
Good night.
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