Saturday, October 8, 2011
How I miss those simple days
I'm talking to Kwanboon on Skype now (how rare it is for me to go on Skype hahaha). Miss those days in Prefects.
I really loved the Council whole-heartedly. I'm not trying to praise myself or anything, but really.
"Jing Yong complained that Ben Chia had a BBQ smell on him which made her nauseous. She told Heang Gee about it (because she didn't want to tell Joshua LOL)."
Totally wanted to laugh when I saw this, going back to the post after Kwanboon mentioned it. The two of them used to HATE each other then. Thinking about it now, it's kind of funny. And Ben Chia got angry too, because once during a camp he accidentally spilled some Milo on Jing Yong and she said he "drenched her with Milo" and he got angry because he did not literally drench her with Milo.
I MISS YOU GUYS, EVERYONE, even those that got expelled from Council or quit eventually. Those were the days. Even though I might not be close to everyone but because we made those memories together, they just feel special to me. Special in a different way.
I had dinner with 小姨 and Shun at Bugis today. Reading my archives, especially the ones from Sec 2, makes me think repeatedly - "How I miss those simple days". Of course I had my gripes then and I got upset and worried about certain issues but they seem so trivial now, now that I've passed them. It's like I've walked a distance on a long stretch of road and now I'm looking back at the signs and rocks from the road already-traveled and they seem so small and far away now. I know as I grow older I will worry and upset about even bigger things although the things I face now seem huge enough already. I must stay strong.
The way I used to behave was so silly and childish at times. But at that point in time I really thought I was somewhat mature, or at least more mature than the people around me, because that's what certain people told me sometimes. It's only been 2, 3 years since Sec 2 but I feel like I have grown up a lot since then. And then in a few years I'm gonna be thinking I've grown up a lot since now too.
Anyway... We had dinner at Uncle's Kitchen, which is situated on the basement floor of Bugis Junction. Ate the usual, as did everyone else. Talked about a lot of things with my aunt and I feel like she's a really lovely person. At times I wish she was my mother but I know that is not possible :) She is very hip and multi-talented! She knows how to make teddy bears (REALLY nice ones) and do a bunch of craft stuff. She also learned how to do nail design.
I also went back to eat fishball noodles at the coffee shop near Fuhua (red chair coffee shop, as some of us used to call it haha. Or was it blue chair? Hmm). The auntie just closed, but she cooked the noodles for me cos I wanted to eat them :) I told her that Christine, Jayda, Elycia and Jovin want to come back and eat too but we haven't set a date. We've got to go back! I know you guys are probably not reading this though.
Afterwards, G accompanied me for a hair cut at a salon in the area. My hair feels so short now, about two to three inches are gone.
I wonder who still reads my blog. I know there are some of you out there, like Kwanboon for instance cos he would tell me he read my blog sometimes haha. And I know how many page views I get so there must be others out there reading. Please tell me if you guys do? There's nothing to be shy about. You can even tell me how boring my blog is compared to Sec 2 cos there were pictures then and all I do now is ranting and ranting and ranting. Hahaha
There is this person (well, more than one person actually) out there that I wish I could still be friends with. WELL when it comes to all the not-friends-anymore-but-wish-we-could-be-friends-again people, there are always reasons why we are not friends anymore. These reasons are also why I don't approach these people.... Because things may be awkward, weird, strange, bad or even (seemingly) downright impossible between us.
But you people must know this. Whatever the state of the relationship between us is, because of whatever it was that occurred in the past, if you have once known I considered you important... There is a place in my heart (or mind, at least) where a piece of you resides. I know this might seem like I'm contradicting what I said in one of my previous posts about how I no longer care for my closest friends (even if I've drifted from them), but this is different. Because this is all the memories we share and fact is I really do miss those days. As time goes by, you and I and everyone would (slowly but) surely change, but I'll always remember and appreciate the way things were back then, the way you were back then that made me love you so much and all the wonderful things we did together. Even if you have changed now to someone different, I'll still cherish the memories we had in the past forevermore.
Makes me feel so dumb sometimes cos when I think about these people so much... I wonder if they think about me too. These people are really special to me and I wonder if they see me as someone special too.... I hope you do but I can't hope for much.
Have a good weekend, everyone.
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